Patrick & Angela,

I know you don’t know me and you probably never will. But I am your older sister, the one your father refuses to tell you about. He’s an asshole and I am sorry you have to deal with him everyday – although he probably treats you two like you are his world. I remember when I was younger, before you two were even thought of, he held me on his shoulders and promised me the world and everything I ever wanted..sadly, I am nothing to him. He acts like I don’t exist and refuses to own up to me now. He is a coward and a piss poor excuse of a father – at least to me. I hope he treats you two well. I contacted the both of you via Myspace a few years ago and told you everything. Boy did I start a huge feud. Your mother threatened my life, talked down to me in every which way possible, and your father let her do it. I was so hurt for weeks I cried about it all the time, it just made me hate them that much more and fueled the fire for my anger. I just wanted you two to know who I was, that I do exist. It wasn’t that big of a shock when both of you questioned me and requested pictures for proof. I have all the proof in the world yet your parents told you I was a liar. Why do you think they were so insecure and scared when the truth came out? I realize I can’t blame you for your parents stupidity. But I will never come around so long as I can help it. Besides, your father left his own brothers funeral just because I was there so I guess we will never have that problem. And your mother? Shes a fucking bitch. I wrote you in hopes that one day you would want to find me, you would want to know who I was too. But sadly I don’t think that will ever happen. I am sure you forgot about me by now but I still hope one day when you both turn 18 you will try to reconnect with me. You guys should not have to suffer just because I hate your father. Every time someone asks me how many siblings I have I usually leave the both of you out – half siblings or not a part of me still considers you family although I have never met you. Angela, you look just like I did when I was younger. I actually started shaking when I first saw your picture online the resemblance scared me so much. I’m sorry things have to be this way – especially for you guys. I’ve went through a lot of hurt and pain from your father but I can finally say I am at peace with myself. I hope one day we can meet. I am nothing like that monster you live with and I promise not to turn away from you and deny you. I am in contact with everyone else within the family, I’m not that hard to find if you really wanted to.

I’ll be waiting.
xoxo Your older sister