For a while now I’ve had the same feelings. Nothing you say is romantic or gives me hope. Even when you’re trying it’s like it was before when you wouldn’t admit to it but hint towards your feelings for me. I just gave up and put my faith and time and hope into something I love, a fresh relationship that can be my empty canvas.

I look back at pictures of you and briefly remember what it felt like to be a teenager or to be on the verge of womanhood and have those feelings but they only last a minute and that’s when I started thinking to myself that maybe I can get over you and move on.

I feel like what we had is now just a what could’ve been but was never going to actually be. I feel like you’re not the same and that’s the person I loved. He’s just not there.

And things will never be the same with us. I wish I could say something that could calm you or make you understand. I just don’t know.