You know, I didn’t ask for this. You act as though you have some big decision to make when the only person twisting your arm is you. Someone should have told you that you can’t have your cake and eat it too, especially when it involves peoples feelings and their lives. You summoned me, I was as honest as I could be because I don’t want to regret a thing. And when you didn’t call I was disappointed but not surprised.

I was bullied too. People were saying things to me like, “She’s cool now. She stole your thunder, you made her cool.” Blah blah blah. I wasn’t even jealous. I was happy and you know what I thought at that moment? One more loose end tied up.

Your excuses as to why you couldn’t decide what you wanted aren’t good enough and they never will be. I was excited to be moving on and I thought you understood that. I tried to make you see your life years down the road if you kept it up and you kept pushing.

I hope those days of looking so cool were worth it. Not saying you love me back, running downstairs afterwards, the little comment that gave everyone that visual you so desperately wanted them to have. Do you have any idea how much less I think of you? We are not the same.

You should have stayed with her, the girl you couldn’t let go.

I’ll tell you something. If that is me years down the road with someone else… don’t expect me to aknowledge you.