Sarah,
Every day I hear about your life with him, and how happy you are, I feel the strangest mixture of profound loss and sincere happiness. I know that I will love you for the rest of my life, and the thought that you will never be mine again is a cold and familiar weight in my chest. But the knowledge that you have found happiness sends a warm glow through me. I would be lying if I said I don’t pray for an opportunity to be with you again, because it would be so much different than the last time. Even if such a day never comes, I’ll content myself with being your friend, because even partial shade is better than living in the dark.