I’m sorry.

I’ve lost myself.
Truly.
Unquestionably.

I’ve been waiting for someone to save me; To help plug these leak and keep my love and compassion and all things that are good inside of me, but they are slowly leaving through the cracks and being wasted on the ravenous ground.

Some have tried. I’ve realized only I can save myself, and I am inadequately equipped to do so. I feel no desire nor motivation.

I’d be no good for her.

Yet I don’t want to live without her.

I need to get my act together…
Restore my faith.
Renew my relationships.

And then I will find her.

God, please help me.