I’ve been thinking about how to tell you this for a while. At first I thought I would just run up to you and say it. Then I actually considered just kissing you, cutting right to the chase. There have been several opportunities where we’ve been alone that I regret not taking action more than anything. The thing is, we’re friends. Not only that but we’ve only started to get close recently. I love it. I love being your friend, I love texting you, talking to you and I absolutely love seeing you. It’s always my favorite part of the day. Every time you walk in the room, the butterflies in my stomach go wild. You’re one of the only people that doesn’t need to make any effort to make me smile, just the thought of you fills me with overwhelming joy. I knew I liked you when you hugged me this one winter afternoon…you pulled me in close and rested your head on top of mine and the chaos around us disappeared into nothingness. You held me tight and caressed my back and I never wanted that moment to end. You’re not what I’ve traditionally went for in the past, and I used to never imagine myself liking someone such as you. But that’s what makes you so grand. You’ve taught me things about myself that I would’ve never realized. But, the problem is, I may love you. I really want to tell you, and above all have you say it back. But, what if you don’t? What if you just look at me with a blank stare and laugh? What if you reject me? What if it ruins everything we’ve gained over the last year…what if I mean nothing to you? Maybe you’ll see this and realize it’s about you. Maybe, by a stroke of luck you’ll feel the same. I’m too much of a coward to ever make the first move.
I want to tell you so badly, but I’m a coward and I don’t want to risk losing you. So I’m going to tell you here. I’ll tell the world instead.
I love you.