My Love for You has not Changed
by admin • July 13, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, Love - Pure and Simple • 8 Comments
I was browsing through old letters I have written and posted on this site (yes, I keep records of them all) when I came across this one (below). Immediately it rekindled a low-burning flame from when these sentiments were first expressed nearly a year ago. It is the second letter I have posted since finding LINS (and the first in a long line of letters I have never sent) and wanted to re-share it (with minor edits) because of the hope it has restored in me, and possibly may ignite in you, the reader. Words have a strange effect on people sometimes. 
So hope you enjoy! 
~Enjay
P.S. To Angel:
I just noticed that the original letter had a comment with your name attached and, assuming it is the same “Angel”, I just find it funny how you were still reading and commenting on my letters from nearly a year ago, back before I assumed the pseudonym of “Enjay” haha! Well, I thought it was fun at least :-p And if it’s not the same, then I apologize for the mix up. :-p
This is my Love for You
You are beautiful — so incredibly beautiful that you evoke the jealousy of the stars in the vacant desert on a moonless night and the setting sun over the Pacific. They covet the radiant glow of your heart and the gentle warmth of your smile. You cannot hide the innocence and purity emitted from the essence of your nature, nor the joy and life that follows you wherever you go. Never before have I beheld a creature of such grace and magnificence, for truly there is no viable comparison.
And yet you have suffered and been hurt more times than you can count. Having struggled with finding genuine Love and kindness in this world, you have traveled down a barren road devoid of all that is good, yet you carry on in Love and Hope. Your head is held high because of the Love you know will never fail you, and you give your heart to no one else but He who created you and him, whom your Creator will give you. You guard your heart with every available defense, and angels stand guard at every entrance until the day we are one. And what a beautiful and momentous day that will be, when at last they are commanded to step aside and allow me access to such a fragile and valuable treasure!!! For then the task of guarding your heart will be mine as well, and never will I allow any harm to befall it!
We have an adventure before us; a grand and magnificent adventure that will consume our lives and leave us breathless with joy and accomplishment. Whenever we grow weary, we will find refreshment at the River of Life that flows through our hearts and replenishes our souls. We will drink deeply from this River every day as we grow closer to our destination together. The road will be difficult and laden with obstacles: rocks to stumble on, holes to trip in, storms that batter us and hinder our progress, and robbers that beat us and take our possessions. But we will face each obstacle together and rise above each one. Truly, the adventure doesn’t begin until we are together. All else leading to that day is just the prologue of our novel, preparing us both for the pages ahead and the story we will write together.
Words cannot express the depth of my Love and all that you mean to me. The greatest depth of the ocean cannot submerge it, and the highest mountain cannot look down on my Love for you. The thought of being with you fills me so completely that no empty space exists and all shadows are erased from the darkest corners of my heart. My Father has placed a beacon of hope within me that wells up inside and banishes the residing darkness. YOU are that beacon, and I cannot wait until the day I meet you and our adventure begins. I look forward with great anticipation to watching my Love for you grow and blossom in inconceivable ways as we grow closer to each other and our God through this amazing journey of ours. I don’t know you yet, but with each passing day God moves us a little closer to the intersection of acquaintance. And although I don’t know you, I Love you with an unquenchable flame that burns like a flame in a Lighthouse, never dying, prepared to guide you safely to the harbor of my heart.
Forever yours, my Love,
Your future story.
Enjay,
This is by far one of the best pieces you have written. I mean, they are all exquisite – but these words just seems to flow effortlessly like the river of life in which you have described.
In particular, I adore the part in which you tell the tale of the woman/girl with the beaten heart that is protected by her angels and personal army around her heart. She is then finally able and ready to let a worthy, and graceful opponent that allows her to believe in love again. I can certainly relate to that sentiment.
I would almost bet money, that it was me who in fact commented on your original letter. I came to this cite just under a year ago so the timing is about right.
Thank you for posting this again- I truly enjoyed this one and I know everyone else who reads it will feel the power in the words as I have.
It’s always a pleasure to read your work and hope to hear from you soon Enjay.
Angel
This letter sux
Angel,
I’m glad it had the effect that it did for you. It is certainly one of my favorites from my archive because it is one of the few consistently positive bordered by hope and anticipation. I honestly wish that I had more letters like in my collection than I do, but I am sure that the future will see that change. :-p
Words do indeed hold power: far more than most give them credit for, and my passion is observing and revering the power of rhetoric, and then pursuing it for the benefit others may find in it.
Again, thank you for taking the time to read my letters and comment on most of them, as well as being an active presence on this site. It is always good to know that one is not speaking to uninterested air.
~Enjay
I don’t think I have read this, Enjay, but it is breath taking and certainly stirs a side inside of me, as most of your words do. Familiar souls. It reminded me of a poem that I shared with the one I love, a poem that that reflects truth, to me, thinking of him.
May you enjoy it just as well and maybe even see resemblance.
Be well, be safe, and do keep track of your collection! I can’t wait to buy your book
I seem to have loved you in numberless forms, numberless times…
In life after life, in age after age, forever.
My spellbound heart has made and remade the necklace of songs,
That you take as a gift, wear round your neck in your many forms,
In life after life, in age after age, forever.
Whenever I hear old chronicles of love, it’s age-old pain,
It’s ancient tale of being apart or together.
As I stare on and on into the past, in the end you emerge,
Clad in the light of a pole-star piercing the darkness of time:
You become an image of what is remembered forever.
You and I have floated here on the stream that brings from the fount.
At the heart of time, love of one for another.
We have played along side millions of lovers, shared in the same
Shy sweetness of meeting, the same distressful tears of farewell-
Old love but in shapes that renew and renew forever.
Today it is heaped at your feet, it has found its end in you
The love of all man’s days both past and forever:
Universal joy, universal sorrow, universal life.
The memories of all loves merging with this one love of ours –
And the songs of every poet past and forever.
-Tagore
Dear Nobody,
First off, I do not like your name. You are certainly Somebody, wonderful and unique, and your reactions and sentiments are more than evidence of that.
Just thought I’d put that out there :-p
Secondly, like I said: it was a while ago underneath a different alias at the time. Catcher 2, i believe, or maybe C2; I don’t remember haha. And I did thoroughly enjoy that poem you shared. I haven’t seen it before, but it is beautiful, written with heart-felt sentiment, though I particularly enjoyed the expression of renewing love. Aahhh sweet, sweet sentiment haha. Love truly is the greatest gift we are blessed with, and the greatest gift we can offer to another.
And I mean true Love, not the rough imitation displayed on TV or pushed for by society. That kind of Love does not last, as is evidence in the divorce rates within the US.
Sorry, almost started on a tangent haha, but I reined myself in. :-p but again, thank you both, Somebody and Angel.
As for a book, let’s just say I’ve an idea or two, but nothing solid until after I finish boot camp and can return to the digital world. 
But God bless you both, and all who frequent this site. Always a pleasure to talk to and hear from you.
~Enjay
To Anna:
Not very insightful, I am afraid.. Would you care to elaborate, please? I am always open to critique. (Just ask Angel haha) :-p
Dear Nobody,
Your poem is quite good and I shall continue to read your work here on LINS as well.
Enjay,
Don’t pay attention to negative, immature comments such as Annas. Clearly- she didn’t read it, understand it nor begin to embrace critical thinking on her own other than a few hateful words. Ignore it.
Always a pleasure,
Angel
To Angel,
Meh, I don’ like ignoring people who comment on my letters, regardless of the quality of their reply. Was just hoping that maybe she had something more to say is all.