Ugly
by admin • July 8, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, Self-Esteem • 2 Comments
I can’t stand my body. All of my friends are cute and skinny and have the perfect shape. I have an awkward pudge and my thighs look big. My face isn’t a great shape either. I exercise, diet, i’ve even tried not eating, which i shouldn’t have, because it just made me feel sick. I’ve even not purposely not drank water so I wouldn’t have water weight, but it just slowed my metabolism. My friends all call themselves fat, and they can eat a lot! i usually lie and say i’m not hungry, when really i just want their body. I’m also tall! i hate it, i can’t find a guy that tall and has a good personality. they all want to be friends. this may be a good thing to some, but i hate my big boobs. they just have perverted, rude thoughts about me and laugh at them. excuse me but my eyes are up here. it’s obnoxious to buy clothes that don’t make my boobs look to big, or else bitchy girl call me a slut and horny men just stare! I HATE IT! i’m going to keep trying my best though to get a body i’m pleased with!
with love,
myself
“Anguish of mind has driven thousands to suicide; anguish of the body, none. This proves that the health of the mind is of far greater consequence than the health of the body, although both are deserving of much more attention than either of them receive.” C.C. Colton
There is so much more to you than your physical appearance. Who you are is not what you look like. And I think it would help if you told your friends how you felt so that they can understand and be more careful and considerate. At least you have tallness-being short and pudgy is worse, let me tell you. But I am learning to work it off for my health, so that I can do more things that I want to do. It is not healthy to lose weight for image only-it will never satisfy you.
Please stop. Please. I thought these same things about myself for years; I was anorexic, and I look back on those days as the saddest I’ve ever encountered. Being healthy does not mean being “skinny”. Be Happy. THAT is healthy. You are young; you are in the peak of your life. Be youthful; Enjoy life, and FORGET about comparing yourself to everyone else. There will always be someone skinnier, someone prettier, and obsessing over that will get you Nowhere.