It’s hard to let go of someone when you don’t know why they left. There is no closure. All I wanted was an answer…a reason. I needed to know why. They say people come and go; people change, but I thought you were different. I thought you were “the one.” I let my guard down with you and gave you my heart. It’s not an easy thing to do. You took my heart and ran, and now I’m trying to recover. Another difficult thing to do.
It’s been over a year now, and I still have trouble trusting people. Everyone. Even my own family. I am afraid to love and not be loved in return. I am afraid they will all leave without explanation, and I will return to that dark place. That’s not a place I ever want to go again.
My heart is covered in scar tissue. While it may still be working, it has been weakened. It may never return to its full health. All I can do is wait until I meet someone better than you. Someone that will erase that pain forever. Someone who will make me feel more alive than you ever could. And one day, I know, I will meet that person. But until then, I am hurting.
And what kills me the most is knowing that you have that much power over me.