Complicated, is how it’s simply put
by admin • June 30, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 2 Comments
For the one who doesn’t know, I need you to know that I don’t know myself. There is so much under contemplation with us; there is so much to consider. Could I be fair to you? Could I love you the way you deserve. I know that I cannot answer this question with out giving up all that I hold dear. And I know it’s not fair to put you through this. I suppose I couldn’t take much of this myself. It is unfair of me to expect that from you. But you should know I am unfair to most. I am only good in heart break. I am not sure if I am any use for much more. I just want you to know that you’ve actually meant something to me. You’re not someone that I deem as expendable, rather that of a diamond. Like a diamond I rarely put you to use. I know that sounds insensitive, but I hope you can forgive me. I don’t know how to put it to words, even though I consider this my craft. Though I seem to know it all, I am like an infant who needs the constant guidance from his mother. I ask the best from you, without giving you the best from me. I am sorry. I’m sure we’ll find out if my apology is needed.
Do you even know what she wants?
Is this something you could better work out together if you both laid it on the line, or is that not possible?
Is it not desirable to let the ones you care so much about know how fondly you think of them, whether or not you intend to take any action about it?
I agree, It is very complicated. Sounds like he is scared to give up the current stability he currently has with someone but also has rare feelings for another that he can’t deny. There must be more to the story there that he feels guilty about.
He needs the diamond in his life some way but to what extent?, It seems as if he knows he would break her heart even if he didn’t mean to. He may have already done so.
Maybe writing about it , is the only way to cope with the frustration. I can relate to that.