I feel like a lot of bad things have intersected my path of life lately. A lot of things I couldn’t control and a lot of things I brought upon myself. Regardless of how my heart became this weak, it is. And until recently I had nothing to look forward to, I had no real
Now we are exactly right back where we started. There are so many reasons what has happened so far, but one being that if I didn’t care then I wouldn’t worry about your reputation and what they would all say. You know as well as I do what they would say. Headline everywhere. But I
I’ve had a couple incidents in only 2 years. When I was 17, I was sexually assaulted by a complete stranger. I still remember his face, and his heavy breathing. I remember him ripping my shirt open, and shoving his hand up in between my legs. I remember he put his fingers inside of me.
Of all the experiences I’ve gathered over the years, the ones I shared with you were the most valuable. I Can hardly believe how much I’ve changed since you have been apart of my reality. I was unable to see my faults before you, in fact I thought I was very near perfect and the
I’m beginning to become frightened that I will slip away is this dark void of depression. I’ve realized that I’d rather be alone to confront my thoughts, than to be with friends to put my mind else where. The constant smiling and making of spectacles could only last for so long until I had to
Last week you texted me out of the blue asking if a post you saw on another website was from me. I wish it had been, but would it have mattered? Do you miss me as much as I miss you? Does your mind wander back to me as frequently as mine does to you?