Dear Almost Lover,

Why should I stay haunted by you, when you are just fine? Is it that easy to forget all that we’ve had together? Is it easy for you to forget all the promises you kept? Is it easy for you to watch me cry in front of you? Is it easy for you to cut me down after all the times I’ve built you up? Is it easy for you to use me and then blame your religion on why you have bailed on me?

If you are the man I thought you were, you would answer NO.
But sadly, you are the man I have feared you to become.

It is easy for you to cut, slash, stab, and step on my heart.

As I watch the ruins, I see them form a wall to protect my delicate soul once more from your backlash.

Why do I have to dream of your charming ghost, when the real you is smothering beneath your ego? Is it that hard for you to dream of what we could have? Is it that hard for you to keep your promises? Is it that hard for you to wipe the tears from my eyes? Is it that hard to build me up after all the times I’ve built you up? Is it REALLY that hard for you to take responsibility of your actions without an excuse pointing the finger at someone else?

These are the questions that keep me guessing, keep me dreaming, and keep me here.

I wish I could say “Goodbye, Almost Lover”, but I know that I will never be able to unless you can answer my questions.

Your Serve,
SGJ