On and off I’ve been struggling with depression and laziness. I doesn’t help when I’m depressed at school. I’ve also been self diagnosised with an anxiety disorder. I always causes my grads to go up and down. I just finished my second semester of college and I think during it that semester I’ve been the most depressed. I checked my grades and when I saw how horrible I did I broke down. I’m scared last yr in high school I had a meltdown because of my grades this yr I’ve just proven how stupid I am. I’m 3.0 student but now…….. I’ve failed my mum the most. I want to do better I want to be independent but I’m afraid I’ll mess up more. I keep thinking I should tell her but I’m scared. I’m so scared. My dad… Oh god he’ll be furious. I mean he’ll lose it. And him yelling at me always makes me feel worthless. Maybe I should leave. Maybe I am a failure like my grades show I am.