itoshii ito:

we bonded so quickly. emotionally, anyway. i felt closer to you than i did to my friends i’ve known for years. it wasn’t that we knew a lot about each other; there was just an instant deep connection. there was the language barrier in the way, but we didn’t need words.

but then you left. we both knew it would happen, we saw it coming from the beginning. i never expected it to hurt as much as it did. i still cry when i walk by your house.

we barely talk on facebook. we haven’t skyped. you’re happy with your life now, your boyfriend, your school, your town… and i’m still here. still thinking about you. still wondering what life would be like if we had more time.

my feelings for you will always be confusing. you were the first person i loved selflessly. i’m not sure whether that was natural love between friends or something more.

i’m not sure what to say anymore.

love always,
aka-chan hana