So if my reality is constructed by my thoughts way am I still lonely? There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think about him and yet still he’s not by my side. How is it that though I try to occupy my time with someone else, I miss and want him even more? Why is it that even though I am trying to move on I find my new suitor (who would seem sweet to just about anybody) so damn repulsive. It’s almost as if I’m forcing myself to like someone else knowing full well I am still so in love with my ex.
It’s been five months and it doesn’t seem to be getting any better. Every moment I spend away from him strengthens my feelings for the man I feel is my soulmate. Sometimes I wonder if I’m going crazy. Why can’t I forget about this man or better yet why can’t I just pick up the phone and tell him just how I feel?
For now all I can find the courage to do is continue to produce thoughts of him, hoping that the law of attraction will bring us back together sooner or later. After all, my reality is suppose to be constructed by my thoughts right?
I certainly hope so.
A wondering soul.