I’m sorry. I’m really sorry.

I have a past. Everyone has a past. I’ve been through some hard times and I have made some very bad decisions. I’ve gotten better, I am not the person I use to be.

I use to party, and drink, and be with guys who I had no idea they were. I was sad and upset, and I dealt with it in a very bad way.

I think you are a great guy, but I think if you knew what I’ve done and the mistakes I’ve made, you would never look at me again.

I’m sorry, but I cannot live up to your expectations. Your judging eyes are turning me away. I’m sorry I didn’t have as good of a life you’ve had.

Do you remember when we heard about how everyone is beautiful, but also a train-wreck? It’s true, it’s so true. I really hope you take those words to heart because from where you’re at, I’m not good enough for you, so we will never work out…

I love God with all my heart, and I KNOW that God still loves me even though I have made bad decisions. I hope you still can too.