Everything I am… Everything I know, all of it changed when you walked out of my life like I didn’t even matter, and I guess at the end of the day it really didn’t.
I loved you, hell I love you, but i’m starting to think that maybe it’s okay to let go and leave you alone forever… You’re happy, you have a great girlfriend, a great job, everything you wished for.
But here I am stuck with these fucking dreams that you left me with.
You made me think of our little children that we will never have… The little brown headed brown eyed children with huge smiles. Lacy && Zane, isn’t that beautiful? That’s our dream remember? I doubt you do anymore. I doubt you even care, maybe I shouldn’t.
I think about the little shitty apartment we were going to have, me cleaning always and taking care of our kids and when you came home you would cook for us because I don’t know how to cook with out burning things.
But now you have these dreams with her right? Is it sad that I know she won’t ever love you like I do? I doubt you even still care about me… You act like you do, it kills me when you say you still love me. We can’t have both and you know it. You’re the one who choose this life you have with her now.
You’re the one who wanted to drink all the time, i’m the one who wanted to fight all the time.
We’re both in love… Just not with one another.