• Scared

    by  • March 31, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, Confusion • 1 Comment

    I’m so scared right now. I’m not sure what I’m doing; I feel like I’m living directionless without purpose. Why do I feel like I’m at the bottom, back to square one, nowhere to go? Do I have depression? Or just anxiety and stress? I don’t know anymore. I’m working, and working, but there doesn’t seem to be a goal. Where am I going?

    I just want to stop. Please, just have it stop.

    I don’t want to isolate myself, but some days it feels like I have nothing. I feel like my friends have left me. I don’t have anyone to talk to. I can’t be loved.

    One Response to Scared

    1. Marny
      March 31, 2012 at 11:39 pm

      I know exactly how you feel. I have an end-goal, but no idea how to get there. And I wonder if it is even realistic.

      Tonight was one of those nights where I felt like my friends did not care about me. They left me out. It hurts so very much, especially when you don’t want to badmouth them and even if you could, it’s too late to talk to someone about it. It is one of the worst feelings.

      I just want you to know you’re not alone. And that as hard as it is to believe, you are loved by someone out there. As for the rest, you’ll figure it out. You’re worried about the future and you’re probably more prepared than you think. Decide what it is that you love and go from there. Ask someone older and wiser about it. See what they say. I’m sure they’ll tell you you’re doing just fine.

      You have more than you think. And if you don’t, you will get there.

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