Why am i okay with just fucking?
1. It’s easier, I don’t have to be emotional or let them see what’s broken on me. they just see the pretty product on the outside of the box. I don’t want to let anyone open and see that shipment was rough on the product and there’s a scratch there and a crack here and assembly line employee Gorge forgot piece number 49.
2. I don’t have to worry about a keeper. guys can’t tell me i can’t get fucked on pills and stand on a crowded dance floor and let the bass flow through me. they can’t stop me from making extra cash by doing private shows. they can’t get pissed when I work from 5p.m.-2a.m. taking my clothes off and pretending i love a guy until he pays me. they can’t say shit if i go to a frat and get smashed on jungle juice and grind on some cut up little boys.
3. If he is bad I don’t have to pretend he is good. I can tell him he fucking sucked and was a complete disappointment. because i’m not fucking him because i like him or want to please him… He is fucking there to please me and treat me like a princess.
4. the chase is fun. And being picky is fun. makes him feel special if you make him jump through hoops and think he’s not getting it.
so that’s why I am cool with just fucking and not committing myself to anyone. In break down I’m an arrogant, cunty slut who uses her body to make money enjoys getting fucked up on pills and booze and likes to fuck with guys heads.