I wish… Oh God how I wish stories like these actually happened. Stories where loved ones leave behind something, anything for you to find to let you hold them close even just a little bit longer. The truth is though that we don’t have to find them. They are already found. In fact they were never lost. They are always in our hearts and our minds. Their voices ring in our ears, Their smells surround us. Their arms never ceased to hold us close. That’s why they don’t want to be found. Because they don’t have to be.
The memories we shared will never be forgotten because they are not only in my heart, they’re in yours. Wherever you are I am. Wherever I am you are. Today is the day I realized that. Today is the day I found that I didn’t need to find you baby. You never left me. Even though that’s so hard to accept because you’re not physically here with me, I feel your constant guidance and your love. I cannot and will not ever deny that. I love you Sydney. With ALL my heart. My heart that you have never and will never leave. I will always have you. I don’t need something or someone to find to get answers. I finally found you.
I love you so much. This does not mean the pain of your loss is gone. Only that I am no longer searching for something I already have, and that my love, is you.