• Miserably in love.

    by  • March 29, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, Miss You • 1 Comment

    Sooo here I am.. writing again, wishing I could say this to you..

    My heart beats so fast when I just see your name. Why do I have to love you so much? I want you in my life, even if it means that you are just my friend. Is there anything I can say to you to make you love me again? I doubt it.. A simple “hi” from you will make me happy.. Just to know that you have thought of me for one split second..

    I resent myself soo much for choosing the wrong person. I know that you would make me smile every day, we would argue, but what couple doesn’t? I have grown up so much since I saw you last. I wouldn’t question myself EVER again. How do you convince someone that seems to hate you that you wouldn’t hurt them? Well, you can’t. It is not possible. I wish I could take away the pain that I caused you. You did hurt me, but I have more than gotten over that. It doesn’t bother me. I deserved it. It was a huge slap in the face that I needed.

    Maybe I deserve to not have you? Maybe I am the bitch that gets to rot in her own misery. But I just love you. I don’t know how to keep myself from thinking of you… Maybe the best thing for me is to just let you be. Let you come to me. I won’t try to talk to you anymore, because it is more than obvious that you aren’t ready yet.

    I’ll wait.

    However long it is, I’ll be here.

    I love you.

    One Response to Miserably in love.

    1. D
      March 30, 2012 at 10:31 am

      C, if that’s you, sure sounds like you, call me.

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