Of course, I don’t see you for months, and where do I run into you? When I’m on a date with another guy.
I can’t lie…it felt great that YOU had to see ME with another guy. Really great. But that feeling didn’t last long…
You know what really gets me?—–I want you. ALL OVER AGAIN…
As cliche as this is about sound…watching you walk away was the worst thing ever.
I wanted SO badly to get up and run after you. Leave my date and pull you away from your friends. Seriously…I thought about it.
I thought I liked this new guy. He seemed so great, and maybe even more attentive and sweet than you were. Nope…not true at all. But that doesn’t matter. He’s not for me and I don’t want him. Once I saw you, my date was already ruined. I wasn’t focusing on him—just thinking of you.
Even if he was the greatest guy in the world, I’d still think about you…I want you. God Damn it. I WANT YOU.
You really had to come up to me acting like you didn’t notice I was with someone else. Went right in for the kill, with that –>beautiful<– smile.
Here's where it get's really pathetic…
I bet I never told you how much I love that smile. Let's not forget those eyes…baby blue eyes. (I don't even know what color his eyes are.)Oh, and don't get me started on that adorable head of dark hair and dark tan skin. How did I not notice how cute you were in high school?
Here's something I would NEVER say out loud. You look so unbelievably sexy in baseball hat. Weird right? But really. I love when you wear them.
You know what else I never told you…I love the sound of your voice. Yep. So cheesy and so true. I know I used to make fun of your "southern twang." But guess what? I love it…I absolutely love every single second of listening to you speak…I don't feel that with him. It's not the same. He'll never be you.
You want to hear more? The fact that you can play guitar makes me melt. Yeah I said it. MELT. I never thought I'd say that about anyone, or anything for that matter, but YOU MAKE ME MELT.
Remember when you tried to learn Baby Girl, by Sugarland, because I told you it's one of my favorite songs? I'll never forget that. I don't even care if you didn't even try to play it. You thought about it. You thought about me. It made me feel fantastic.
Oh, wait. There's more! You know what else he can't do like you did? Look at me. You read that correctly. He doesn't know how to look at me like you do and make me feel like I am the most incredible thing he's ever seen. That's right—that's JUST how you looked at me. Every time I spoke, you beamed. Every time I walked into a room, your face lit up. One look from you and I felt unbelievable.
I know you still talk about me. My friends have told me things you've said…Still tell people how bad you messed up…Wish you could change things. You told one of my friends I deserve a really great relationship.
Nope. No thank-you. If it's not you, it's not for me.
Let's be honest. I KNOW you aren't perfect. There were things about us last year that I don't want to go through again. You were so quiet and reserved and I could never tell what you really wanted. Neither one of us was open, and we couldn't talk about anything personal without difficulty.
… but oddly enough I always knew how much you liked me.
I hate to use excuses, but last year was just bad timing…for both of us.
My friends would just die if they saw this letter. I NEVER talk this way about anything or anyone. They have no idea I feel this way.
I know YOU have no idea I feel this way. I'm good at holding it all in. But I really don't want to anymore.
Maybe someday soon…I'll run into you again.
(Let's just hope neither one of us is on a date this time.)
I want you to know all of this.