• California, Florida and Texas

    by  • March 27, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, Love - Pure and Simple • 0 Comments

    We live in California. You live in Florida. I haven’t seen him in a year. I see you all the time. I have spent the last year trying to forget him. I have spent the last few weeks trying to get to know you. I was close to letting him go when he asked me to be his wife, that he has been very busy with the army and everything they put him through and he misses me and can’t wait to be with me finally. I was planning a trip to Florida to see you when is happened. Now it is canceled. He hasn’t spoken to me since the night he asked me. That was a week ago. I speak to you every night. You make me smile, laugh, and feel good. He gives me butterflies, and warms my heart with simple words. I have loved him for a year. Yet have gone months without speaking to him. I have seen you online with a web cam, and have talked to you every day since we met. He and I will be moving to Texas in October, and then he will be deploying soon after. You will be deploying soon as well. I don’t love you, but I like you. I fear my heart will be with you both on your deployments, and it won’t be whole until you are BOTH back safely. I am not confused as to what I want to do, because I love him with everything. While you have grown on me in the last few weeks, I don’t love you. However, if I were to lose you as a friend, I would be very hurt. I know you don’t understand the situation with him and I. For that I am sorry. Please just know that you are a very good friend to me, and I do not wish to lose you. I am sorry we cant be together. It kills me when I dont hear from him because at times I have feared he has forgotten all about me. When I cant talk to you, because you are at work or any other reason, I feel hurt. It is not your fault. I don’t know what causes it, but it happens.
    Well this is all I can say right now. More to come I am sure.

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