I’ve moved on H and I’ve respected and accepted and moved on. I don’t think you know that though. Sucks that our friendship is ruined now.. but even more that you just don’t understand and I can’t even talk to you anymore. So if there is any part that still cares for me, please don’t. There is someone else who cares about you. Be happy where you are at. I was never meant to be more than a friend to you. That’s it period.
Hope you are doing okay. This weekend I was so glad that I didn’t see you while I was rock climbing with some people. Would have been awkward and frankly I want to avoid you from now on. I think you were right in that somehow we might end up meeting again indefinitely, but I’m going to make sure that never happens again…thus the reason why I’m not going to that conference, because I’m afraid you’ll be there. While you have faded away completely…it’s too soon and I’m afraid that everything will come back. I don’t want that to happen ever again. But I’m sure you’ll never understand that.
I wrote my goodbye letter to you already. I just hope that if you are on here…which I have no way of knowing…that I meant what I said when I said I would let go. I’ve let go and there is no going back. I’ve left the “what ifs” in the dust and looking at the “what is” now.