I don’t know why I’m writing to you here. I guess I’m just that desperate.
I need you. I know I have my doubts sometimes and I forget to pray before I eat. I’m sorry. I just really need you to help me be a stronger person. I need to be less sensitive and more confident. My unhealthy amounof self consciousness is ruining my relationships and the walls are coming up again. I’ve been doing so well and have allowed myself to fall in love- yet my insecurities are holding me back. God, if you get one thing out of this letter, let it be this: I can’t lose him. He’s the only thing holding me together, yet I’m pushing him away and starting to crumble. Lord, I beg of you, don’t let him walk away.