• Sucicide

    by  • March 25, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, School • 5 Comments

    Dear Anybody,
    I know it’s wrong to want people to feel bad for me, but this is my last resort. I feel so unloved, like I have no one to pick me up when I fall down. I go around telling myself I will make it through this depression, but to tell you the truth, I can’t take it anymore. The only thing I have to hope for is the guy who goes to my high school. I am secretly falling for him,like it’s not obvious. I really feel like there is no reason for me to live anymore. I cry myself to sleep every night. I hear all these absurd comments running through my head. ‘Everyone hates you”, ‘You don’t belong here”, ‘Go die”. After considering all this I may just take my life.

    5 Responses to Sucicide

    1. rachel
      March 25, 2012 at 2:49 pm

      You know what? If you kill yourself, I promise you that tons of people are going to cry, mourn, wish that they could do ANYTHING to get you back alive and with them. There are so many people that seem like they don’t care but really they just don’t know what to say to cheer you up.

      I have no idea what I can say to make you feel better, but if you’re in the US call 1-800-273-8255, the suicide prevention lifeline.

    2. :)
      March 25, 2012 at 5:17 pm

      There are times when everyone feels lonely. You need to control your negative self talk. Every day list ten things you like about yourself. Ten minor things. For example, I have a pretty ________ or I’m good at _______. Also, I would find someone to talk to. Maybe even a pastor, counselor, or teacher. Someone who you look up to and trust. Also, try joining a club. Like drama club for instance or taking a fun class next semester/quarter.Also, get at least ten hours of sleep a night.(I am assuming you are in your teens.) It will also help.

    3. A.
      March 25, 2012 at 5:26 pm

      I know I’m not much help because you don’t know me at all. But someone out there loves you. My friend. I love him like a brother. He killed himself. He thought the same thing you did. Once he was gone everyone lost it. It’s terrible to see a family break down like that. So live another day. Please. There will be someone. Maybe not right now but someday who thinks you are the most amazing person in the world. And they’ll mean it. You just have to trudge through the tough stuff. Somedays will be pretty bad and others will be great. And it’s the great days that’ll get you through.

    4. Me.
      March 26, 2012 at 12:52 am

      You don’t know me.
      I don’t know you.
      But look, I’ve been there. I’m still there. Putting it bluntly, it sucks balls. You think it’s never going to get better. You think it’s always going to suck, and that suicide is the only way.
      And honestly? It does suck for a long time. I’m not going to tell you that it gets easier. Eventually, I think, in the long run it does. It’s a constant battle. All the time. I’m living it, right now, with you.
      I’m slowly becoming more stable and I’m not as high risk as I used to be. I’m certainly not where I want to be. I want to be better. And that’s what is getting me through this. I want to be better.
      Find something you enjoy, that is going to distract you. I read sometimes. Mostly though, I take pictures. I started up photography when I was where you are at now. Now, I’m really great at photography, to the point of where I have my own business at a young age.
      My sister took up drawing.
      I’m telling you.
      Music. Drawing. Painting. Photography. Writing. Poetry.
      Art will help you.
      So much.
      I live for that next photo. That next moment that I’ll have captured. I live for what I can do, and the joy that I bring to people with my photos.
      And I live for my dog. Get a puppy, a cat, or a goldfish. Anything. You can talk to them, and they don’t judge. They’re always there. Regardless.

    5. Lindsay
      March 26, 2012 at 2:11 pm

      There is a time in everyone’s life when it feels like the end. In my case, there have been many. I sincerely hope you find happiness in life and you are able to look past the things that upset you. One of the most amazing things that happened to me was talking to a friend or family member when I had times like you’re having. They truly saved my life. As you become older, you will begin to realize that you deserve to be happy as much as anyone else; you just have to believe that. Please do not take your own life, I know as a fact that many people will be devastated if you do so. Hold on to any hope you have, and I promise you things will get better. Pray to God, even if you don’t believe in him. He can and will do amazing things in your life, but you have to ask first.

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