• Still I run run run, run right into you ..

    by  • March 25, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, Confusion • 0 Comments

    I recently heard the song Run by Matt Nathanson and Sugarland.
    Until I drowned myself in the lyrics of this song, I was completely fine.
    I’m the most confused I’ve ever been.
    I thought I was over him, and I still do think I am, but there’s something there still, for me. He doesn’t like me like that, and he has told me flat out. We’re still friends, but every time I see him, I have the need to forget that I ever told him I liked him, and that he said “I see you as being a really good friend”. I don’t know why.
    I’ve tried and tried to find someone I can have almost the same relationship with, but it’s so hard.
    We never did actually talk about everything, so maybe that’s why I’m still attached, for lack of better words.
    I don’t know who I can talk to. My “best friend” gives SUCH limited feedback, and the other best friend is WAY too opinionated.
    I’m confused and lost and I don’t know how to deal with all of this.
    I wish I can like someone who will actually like me back.
    I’m tired of being the single one of the bunch.
    what is it about me that makes me unlikable in that way?
    I kinda feel like crying .. Oh well.

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