Last night I realized I don’t trust myself around you. I am so physically attracted to you it’s not okay. The problem is I’m not emotionally attached at all. I’ve been asking myself if it is even possible to be physically attracted to someone without the emotional aspect, and with you and I that’s how I feel. We can’t be around each other without flirty excessively. My friends have all warned me about you. You are a man whore. I’m pretty sure you have a thing with a different girl right now. So I’m glad we didn’t do anything, but we almost did. What if I would have gave into your gorgeous smile and your perfect body. I think that might have changed things. You told me you couldn’t say no to me if I wanted to do stuff with you. The only thing on my mind now is, what does all this mean? You told me I was adorable. You are the first guy to use that word to describe me. I liked it though. Everything is so easy with us. I can talk to you about anything. At this point I think we are just friends with benefits, which is okay with me. Without the emotional aspect I could never date you. The problem is we are such good friends and we always hang out and I’m scared to be around you when I am dating other people. I don’t trust myself. I don’t know what to do.
I don’t want to lose what we have, you are one of my best guy friends and I can completely be myself with you. Is that so wrong? I just need to learn control around you.
I wish I could make myself like you. That would make things so much easier.