• what i want

    by  • March 20, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 1 Comment

    What I want for you is what I want for myself and it shakes me that you are not who I think you are. When I look at you I don’t see that person but inevitably, that’s who you are. I’m not sure why I care so much, why I don’t want to give you up because I know that I have someone that loves me more than I could ever expect from someone. But I think there’s this other part of me that I could never be allowed to have with him that I can have with you and I love that person too. I desperately want you to find your way and I don’t know that I don’t want to be included in that. I prefer to shelter certain people and in turn compromise my own progress in working through these confusing thoughts. Why are you so special to me? Why can’t I have my cake and eat it too? I feel like my whole life I’ve been staring at this damn cake and I’ll never get a piece. It’s frustrating living for other people. Regardless, i’m disappointed to never have known the real you. I feel like no one is good enough for you and we both know you’re an asshole so that doesn’t make much sense but I really feel that way. Maybe its just who you are and it’s something that I’ll never understand. I just wish you had… I mean I guess we’ll never know.

    One Response to what i want

    1. DC
      March 20, 2012 at 10:16 pm

      Try not to tell the future but live in the moment and follow what you think is best. The future will build itself based on what you want from it. Be true to others but especially be true to yourself and you will get what you want. It’s our innate desire to control the future that causes us to miss the moment.

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