how do you do this!?
ok, so I’m not crazy. I’m not. But I believe that you can still communicate with me. Honestly, I don’t know how you do it but I love it. I just wish you would make your signs a little more clear.
So I was writing a comment on a letter someone wrote about how they like a guy who isn’t interested, or at least said he’s not. They can’t get over it blah blah blah. I’m in the same situation. I like a guy, you know all about that. (lets call him c to keep things simple. you’re j.) But then as I’m writing this comment, I’m listening to Pandora on my iPod. The song changes and a song comes on that has c’s name in it. Hmm..I’m writing about him and then a song with his name in it comes on. weird, yes..But not necessarily some supernatural sign from you. but then I laugh, look at ur picture like haha or whatever. like I feel like ur talking to me or something. then my iPod stops playing the song and plays some fuckin Celine Dion song out of my music library. I didn’t touch the thing. I didn’t close Pandora and open my music. it just switches on its own. and plays this song about how ur meant to be together, then what do u say to taking chances comes on after that?! wtf. so weird. seriously. gave me some legit chills. I want to slap you. lol. maybe there is some explanation for it..some iPod malfunction I don’t know about or something. but whatever, I chose to believe it was you.
I’m not crazy, you talk to me. through music I guess. I honestly believe that, this isn’t the first time I’ve felt like you were really talking to me through music. when I come to the cemetery and talk to you about my problems and ask you to play me a song, I swear like 9 outa 10 times when I really need your advice, you give it to me. I’m not crazy. this is real. you are here, you still care, and you fucking know what’s up.
but now with this c guy..idk what you were trying to say but it sounds to me like you think I should be with him. Here is the problem though j, how am I supposed to do that? he already told me he’s not interested. I already decided that I would move on with my life. but I still can’t seem to get him completely out of my head. but whatever. that doesn’t even matter. what matters is you seem to think we are meant to be together or something, or maybe I’m just reading the signs all wrong. idk. just give me a clear sign. I mean really. even if I am supposed to be with him, I tried already. give him a sign for once.
he knows I like him. that’s all I can do. I tried. I really tried. the ball is in his court now.
and I’m not crazy. lol
even though if I read this letter i’d be thinking this bitch is crazy..
if I am it’s just fine I guess because it means that you are still here. and you know very well that i’d give up anything to be with you. even my sanity. I miss you, you confuse the fuck out of me, and so does c. I guess it’s always the same with men. dead or alive they are confusing as shit.