• You Are Not Mine to Ask Things Of, But I Ask You Anyway

    by  • March 17, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 4 Comments

    You have surprised me. It is not very often that I allow myself to become emotionally attached to another individual. In fact, you may be only the third person I’ve met in twenty-three years that I have wished I could spend the rest of my life knowing. I suppose that sounds grand and romantic, but I only wish for it to be flattering. I have no selfish intentions or expectations – my only hope is that you are aware that I value you as a human being and that I have been impacted by your presence.

    I understand there is little room in your life for a person of my circumstance, and I have known that all along. I have often questioned why I have felt so close to you at times, and been frequented by feelings of guilt for hoping that you feel drawn to me too.

    For the longest time I have believed that my chance for love has come and gone, but you have given me hope that (even in the most unlikely circumstances) I may find someone again with whom I am willing to share myself. I know I am not that special someone for you, but I think at times that under different pretenses you could have been someone right for me. I am not suggesting there is such a thing as soul mates, nor do I believe in ‘the one’, but I am not bitter anymore because you’ve given me reason to believe that my heart will open again to someone in the future.

    I honestly have never met anyone who makes me laugh as much as you do, and I guess that doesn’t necessarily mean that we have some special connection, but I have found comfort in knowing there are people out there like you.

    I hope that I have not made you uncomfortable at times or driven you away. I genuinely appreciate your kindness in helping to remind me of the value of relationships. You’ve been one of the very few people I knew I could trust from the beginning – someone I felt like had my back even if you didn’t need to. It has meant the world to me, and I wanted you to know that I admire you. You’ve become the example for what I expect in a partnership and what I aspire to find if it is meant to be down the line.

    I think you have a great life and you deserve that. I hope that if there is ever something that you need you know that you can always consider me a friend. I hope that you lead a future of happiness, and if I don’t see you again, I hope you get everything you want.

    “People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake… Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.” – Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat Pray Love

    4 Responses to You Are Not Mine to Ask Things Of, But I Ask You Anyway

    1. that girl
      March 18, 2012 at 6:31 am

      Never met you, but feel like you get me…I get you…through this letter. Profound and heart warming, because I have started feeling this very same way.

    2. Brenda
      March 20, 2012 at 2:40 pm

      Wow, did I write this? It would seem so, these are the exact same feelings and thoughts I have with my ex.
      It’s a good feeling knowing there are good people out there, and in time we’ll all find another one. I too, am no longer bitter. He showed me the parts of me I forgot about, and I will forever appreciate him for that.

    3. A
      August 31, 2012 at 9:05 pm

      I hope this is from you. I don’t think it is—I don’t think you know about this site, and I don’t think you’ve read Eat Pray Love—but it’s close enough that it makes me wonder.

    4. K
      September 1, 2012 at 8:24 pm

      My life.

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