• to my puzzle piece

    by  • March 17, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, Breaking Up • 2 Comments

    I know this is completely against the rules I set for us, but if you stumble upon this by some uncommon coincidence, then you deserve to know how very much I miss you. This is already so much more difficult than I anticipated. I have planned on you for years.

    Tonight I’m lying in my bed that’s not my bed with my dog that’s not my dog and the list of things I will never see the same is growing longer than I can really conprehend so far. I miss you. But I swear I won’t ruin this for you. I won’t pull you back in like I have before, even though I want to.

    You deserve to be free.

    You deserve more love than I can give you.

    You deserve forever.

    I love you. And I wish I could siphon myself into another human being so I could be the friend you’ll need to help you through all this. Because i can’t help you as hannah. I’ve only caused you pain. I wish I could fix it.

    I’m sorry.

    2 Responses to to my puzzle piece

    1. strange love
      March 17, 2012 at 7:47 am

      All in definitions, I know. People have different definitions of so many things, and one of them is love.
      To me, what you feel for this person that you are letting go is NOT love, and probably never was. To me, love is deeper and special beyond throwing the word around meaningless.
      When you say love you can’t give, it simply means – love you don’t WANT to give because you don’t feel the same (and honestly that is okay!). People feel what they feel, you know.
      Honesty is sometimes hard and hurts, but easier to get over. People should try that sometimes to give those people they “love” a change to find their happiness.

    2. Sara
      March 28, 2012 at 1:01 pm

      This is so beautiful. I know you. I know this person. I see them both every day, and it is just wonderful to read what I can’t put down in words for myself. Thank you.

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