• I will marry you

    by  • March 17, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, Marriage • 2 Comments

    You’re a good man. You love me, you will take care of me. You keep asking me to marry you. But I don’t love you. The one I love, I can never have. I’ve made peace with that. I survived that.

    I can learn to love you. I can sure as hell let you take care of me. But right now, I can’t feel for you what I feel for the one I love.

    I’m sorry I can’t be more for you.

    2 Responses to I will marry you

    1. don't
      March 17, 2012 at 8:10 am

      Take it from someone who’s been there and attempted the very same thing. I tried to ‘learn’ to love him for years (decent enough guy I suppose), gave up but stuck around because I didn’t believe in love anyway. I don’t consider 15 years wasted, because they made me to who I am today but I do know now – NOBODY can learn to love. Either you do, or you don’t. Either you will be content not to have love in you life, or you won’t. I gave him the chance to find his love the moment I begun to believe again. Funny how life goes. Your choice but make it with caution. Best wishes to you.

    2. writing_me
      March 17, 2012 at 1:54 pm

      I’ve done what you’ve done so many times, and I could never be there for them as much as they wanted me to. And they always knew it on some level.

      In the end, you’re cheating them, because you’re robbing them from the wonderful experience of being with somebody who loves them unquestioningly.

      That may sound harsh, but I think there’s more than a smidgen of truth in it.

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