I feel like in every sort of “relationship” I’ve ever been in, one of us has gotten attached too quickly and freaked the other out. This would then lead to awkward silences, conversations slowly getting smaller and disappearing, and disappointment. I have been on both ends of this at least once and honestly, they both suck. The last thing I wanna do is hurt someones feelings.
This has made me terrified of relationships and commitment now. I tend to get bored and turned off so easily, but the one time I was head over heels and the guy could do and say no wrong to me, I guess he didn’t feel the same.
I think I like someone now, and this could be the real thing, really. But I’m so scared to do anything about it. Hes a close family friend, and if our relationship does end, I don’t want anything to change. Ive learned the hard way that that’s impossible.
Ugh… I can’t wait till the day I can just be in a normal, happy, equally loving relationship. Yes, that will be the day.