I’m sorry. I’m sorry for the stupid things I do. I told you I wasn’t good at this. I want to make this work so badly, I truly believe we could be something really great. But I understand I blew it, and that’s something I’ll have to live with. Like I told you, I’ve never felt an instant connection with someone before like with you, and I’m afraid it’ll never happen again. I don’t think I want it to. I don’t have any excuses. I don’t have much reason either. Maybe I’m just an asshole. Maybe that’s something I’m supposed to work on. Remember when I told you I needed somebody to knock me down, off my high horse? I think that just happened- and for that, I thank you. You said I have to look at this like a learning experience, and I said I can’t look at you. You said not to touch you ever again, and I said maybe we shouldn’t be together. What sucks the most is that I finally found what I wanted and now it’s gone. I don’t blame you, even though I want to. i won’t wallow in this, even though I want to. I won’t even cry over this, even though I want to. I will do what you said, because we both know you usually know better then me. So come what may, I love you still and hope you find someone better than me.