• Eric.

    by  • March 15, 2012 • To You • 0 Comments

    Back in October 2010, we were sorta together for a week.
    I spent that thanksgiving at your house, & my friend told me not to fall for you.

    Big surprise, you did. We split because we didn’t really spend time together, then TWO DAYS later, you were going with another girl. & you ended up getting her pregnant.

    A week later, I got drunk & made out with one of your friends, then next day you freaked out at me. Told me that I’m fucked. & you deleted me out of your life.

    You kept contact with my friends, you hung out with them & one told me that you acknowledged me as “the one who shall not be named”, while you were in my fucking res, visiting them.

    Surprisingly, even though I was mad, I was okay with it. I was okay with you gone, because we didn’t spend enough time with each other for me to miss you.

    and now, a year & 5 months later, you added me back on fb, trying to come back into my life.
    I didn’t know what to do, after 2 weeks of making you wait, I accepted it.

    To be honest, I wanted to know what you’d say, if you’d tell me I was fucked again, I’d tell my brother to come beat you up & i wouldn’t give a fuck.

    Surprisingly, you said you missed me, you apologized for how you acted. I was okay with that, because that was my closure. Even if it wasn’t sincere.

    Then you asked, if you came back, would I give you a second chance? Because you said you changed, & you’re so sorry about what happened in the past. You said you’d do anything to gain my trust & get me to be yours again. You said you were a fucking dumb ass to let me go.

    .. uhhh. what the fuck am I supposed to say to that?!
    “duurrr, you can take me back. Idc. ” ?
    “yeah, you were a dumb ass” ?

    I don’t know what I’m trying to accomplish.
    Please don’t hurt me again.

    I said you didn’t hurt me before but I lied.
    You were my first bf, & even though I’m 20 yrs old, it still hurt like shit to have you do that.

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