I call it, bullshit. I think every fucking word you spoke tonight was a lie. BULLSHIT. No, I don’t trust you anymore. No, I’m not going anywhere with you. I can’t trust you, plain and simple. It hurts, the tears are flowing, but I’ve ignored my gut instinct too many times before. No, no more, fuck this. Done. I don’t believe you. Not for one second, fuck you, and fuck this.
You have done nothing but lie to me. Lie lie lie lie lie. FUCK. I don’t ever know what the hell to believe anymore. Right this second, right this very fucking second, I never EVER want to see your face again. I never want to have to look in those eyes again, I never want to lay in your arms again, I never want to be touched by you, you or your poisonous words.
I will never let you touch the part of me you touched before again. Never. You will never be given the opportunity to hurt me that way again. You or anyone else. I’m tired of being walked all over. I’m fucking tired of it. I’M DONE WITH IT, DO YOU FUCKING HEAR ME??? NO MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You or anyone else. I will live the rest of my fucking life alone. I won’t be lonely though – oh no… I MUCH prefer my own fucking company. I am completely content now by myself. I like my four little walls, my mess, my dreams… I am very uncomfortable now when people are here, when I have to share my space. I don’t like it.
Fuck all of you, my so called friends, my family, and you! Lies, I’m fucking tired of them. Go back to that nasty bitch and you can both cheat on eachother until you die. Have an endless cycle of it – go ahead. Wind up with all the diseases you want. You both have so much in fucking common. Go ahead.
you will never have that part of me again. never. no one will. i hate you all. i really do.