• Sometimes

    by  • March 14, 2012 • Wish • 2 Comments

    Sometimes I think about every poor choice I’ve made and every botched opportunity and I wonder where it’s going to lead me. I still have a great life and I’m thankful for everything that I have, but I’m bored. I’m graduating from college in two months. I work in a chain restaurant for crappy tips, I have no job lined up, no boyfriend, and dwindling hope for that amazing “future” I always wanted. I try to be happy. I am, mostly, I think. I’m happy for my friends and my family and that everything is going really, really well for them. But secretly, I wish that something great was happening to me, too. So basically, what this letter is is a hail mary for something fun to happen in my life. If everything stayed exactly how it is right now forever, I’d be okay. But I want something better. Something that I wake up for every day and think “hell fucking yeah this is my life” versus the “alright let’s get this shit over with” I usually wake up with these days. I recognize that an anonymous letter is a poor fire starter, but I’ll try anything. So life – if you’re listening, I’m ready for a positive change. Preferably not one of those backasswards you’ll-thank-me-in-the-end changes either. Is that too much to ask? I hope not.

    XO

    2 Responses to Sometimes

    1. J
      March 14, 2012 at 3:54 am

      love you, B.

    2. C
      March 14, 2012 at 6:34 pm

      You’ll only ever be as happy as you want to be 🙂

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