I can’t believe you are still on my mind, its been too long and I finally lost the count. I loved you, I never understood why but I did.
I think I still have feelings for you and that scares me more than you can ever imagine. You hurt me in a way I never thought was possible. I wanted that baby and I let you decide for me, how could’ve been so stupid? Those days and those nights, I can’t leave them behind. It still hurts.
So how can you send me an email and expect everything to be just fine? I managed to answer politely because I wanted to take the high road and thought that being by being a lady and asking you to leave me alone I was punishing you. But believe me, from the bottom of my broken heart I wanted to tell you once again all the reasons I should hate you for. The problem is that I dont, the problem is that somehow I still blame myself and I wish I could turn time back.