• I still love you

    by  • March 13, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, Breaking Up • 0 Comments

    I don’t want to like you.
    I don’t want to think about falling back in love with you.
    I don’t want to think about dating you.
    Or kissing you or being in your arms.
    If I think about it then I start to like you more.
    So I try to avoid even talking about it.
    It makes me sad even thinking or talking about it.
    I’m scared I will fall for you again and that’s not what I want to do.
    It scared me because I got hurt so bad before.
    When you said u didn’t feel it anymore I cried for months after that.
    We didn’t talk and we fell for other people.
    I secretly still loved you but I tried to move on.
    And let me tell you, it didnt work.
    I miss you.
    I’m still in love with you but no one knows it.
    Maybe you know now because you know me so well.
    Anyways, you were always a part of my life and I’m so lucky to have gotten to know you and gotten so close with you.
    You are an amazing guy and I hope you end up with someone who can make you very happy.
    You deserve that: one of my best friends and my first love.
    I can never forget you and never will.
    I don’t want to.
    You will always have a part of me.
    Eventhough you broke it millions of times, i dont care.
    I still want you.
    Maybe i am a fool for doing that but thats how much i love you.
    I dont want anyone else to hold you.
    Because for that short amount of time, they hold my whole world.
    I get jealous.
    Only because i care.
    You know me better than i know myself.
    Weve been through so much.
    How can you throw that away?
    Do you remember what we had?
    Of course you dont.
    You are happy.
    Long gone and moved on.
    But not me.
    Im still waiting for you like i said i would.
    My first everything.
    You moved away to West Virgina and now i never see you.
    You are across the country, miles and miles away.
    But i still wait for you.
    As long as I have to.
    I know we would fight and argue.
    We always work it out though.
    It never stays that way.
    Give us another chance.
    I still love you, eventhough i dont want to.
    I do.

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