I know you a little. Somehow I find myself falling in love with you. I’m not sure why? Wait…That’s a lie. It’s because everyday you find a way into my heart and into my head. It’s not like I try to keep you away but without being aware, you’ve found my way into my head again, like oxygen into my lungs…it’s a easy as that. That’s the way it’s been for the last few months. You are unlike any man I have EVER met. I wish I had words for how great you are but I am bad at this. Forgive me.
Here’s the hardest part of it all. You have a girlfriend. This is something I was aware of since day one. In the beginning I told myself “Distance, young lady, he’s taken. Don’t do this to yourself.” But I did. You wooed me. You are so good at it. Those three nights we were together are irreplaceable and unforgettable. They were stolen moments that I wish I felt guilty for..but I don’t. You engulfed me. We realized it was wrong. I couldn’t be the other woman and you couldn’t do that to her, so we stopped. But here we go again. I know you feel something too. this is something I never thought I would say…So this is my chance. I am telling you right now. Leave her. Be with me. Because, this…whatever you want to call it, is killing me. It’s taking everything from me. God, it’s turning me into a walking cliche. It’s making me submit this to lettersillneversend.com! I can’t eat, I can’t sleep, I can’t stop thinking about you. The jealousy is eating me alive. Knowing you are with her, kills me, EVERY DAY. You tell me how different I am, how I am everything you’ve ever wanted, and how you want me in your life always. If that’s how you feel, DO SOMETHING. You know what I want. I’ve made this abundantly clear many times before and right now. You would think that if I am so rare and so precious to you… you wouldn’t let me go. But I am slipping away. I can’t live my life wondering, hoping you’ll show up at my door. You’ve stripped me bare. I’ve never been so vulnerable. You have my heart. I am desperate and out of control. But I am also crazy and I’m crazy for you. Only you.
So leave her. Be with me. Because no matter what I have a feeling that what you said is right. “We’ll never have it with anyone else.”
But who am I kidding? You will never leave her and I will never send this letter.
With all my heart,