I’m going on a date with you to try and work this out. It’s been a long time and I’m scared. I’m scared of what other people have been saying about us all along ever since we got together…and then separated.
I’m scared about opening up my heart to you, and I’m nervous about seeing you again. I don’t know if I can do this. I don’t know if I really want to do this again…to try and fix this and make it work. All of this just makes me want to move to a distant country and be surrounded by new people and never have to face the fact that everywhere we go somebody knows somebody else who knows you or me or our story. I wish they knew the whole story if they knew anything at all. People talk all the time about other people.
I just wish I could be somebody else right now, but I know I would be running away instead of trying to work this out. I just wish I could tell you that I’m afraid and I don’t want to get hurt again. I wish that I could tell you that sometimes I feel like I’m making the biggest mistake of my life…the moment I said yes to this…again. Please don’t break me. Let’s take this slow.