• i hope you find yourself

    by  • March 9, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, Letting Go • 0 Comments

    It’s been a year and a half and I still care about you. I’ve been through hell and back with you. I’ve watched you grow as a person and then fall as a person. I’ve sat around and let you treat me like crap for long enough. So here’s my letter of hope for you. I hope one day you find yourself. I hope you think back on all the days we spent together, how good I treated you, how I was always there even when I shouldn’t of been. How every time you didn’t want to talk to me I just sat there and waited and waited and waited because I knew you had too much pride to admit that you were wrong and that one day soon you would come right back to me.

    I hope when you’re getting high you remember what you had and how you chose getting high over me. It’s been a year and a half and you’re still getting high. Going to college but still getting high, we’ll see where life takes you. Now you’re doing more serious drugs and I hope you know you’re dumb for that. Drugs will get you nowhere in life. I’ve seen them ruin the lives of those around me and destroy the lives they once had. Its not worth it and you don’t look cool. You’re not impressing anyone and you’re only hurting yourself in the long run.

    I hope one day you grow up. That you realize those around you truly care about you and that you should treat them better because they want nothing but the best for you. You’re only 20, but still, please grow up. I pray that god looks out for you and always keeps you safe, I pray that he takes care of you and helps you find yourself.One day I hope you look back on all of this and realize that I was there for you. But I can’t do it anymore. I have too much going on in my life that I just can’t do it anymore and we’re not even together anymore so this is me letting go. I hope one day you meet the girl of your dreams and that you live happily ever after and that you have children, and when you do have those children and you do worry about them you’ll finally understand how I felt. Until then I wish only but the best for you and I hope you find yourself.

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