Why is it that the second I let go of you, you come into my life again? I’ll admit, I’m glad you texted me. After 3 months of ABSOLUTELY no contact, you answered so many of the questions that have haunted my thoughts and dreams. This whole time you’ve been thinking about me, you care what I have to say…but do you still want me in your life?
I don’t want you back but I can’t help but think about kissing your lips. I can’t stop thinking about your arms wrapped around me…is it bad that that makes me smile? You hurt me SO MUCH, yet, when I see you smiling in my mind, the corners of my mouth turn and I remember what it felt like to be loved by you.
I hate not knowing what you’re thinking, but maybe that’s for the best. Because if I knew you still loved me, I can’t promise I wouldn’t love you back. And THAT is what scares me the most.