• Sleep

    by  • March 8, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, Yearning • 1 Comment

    I want to be prettier. I want to be skinnier. I want to have more friends, I want to be likeable. I am tired of being the friend who is only there when they need me. No one is there for me. I just wish I could sleep for a few days straight and let the world go on without me for a few days. That would be nice. I want to turn off my phone, disconnect from the internet and just have a few days to myself. Would it matter to anyone? Do I matter to anyone? I am so tired, so very tired. I am tired of wanting to be something different for so long, I am tired of the constant studying and the constant keeping in motion because I can’t take much more. I want to go to sleep and wake up different. I want to wake up to someone who will try to keep my going instead of letting me fall. I think I’ll go to sleep now. Who knows when someone will wake me up.

    One Response to Sleep

    1. JSperry
      March 8, 2012 at 4:27 pm

      thank you for articulating something that I have felt for so long. I struggle in the exact same way, never feeling good enough and being taken for granted- and sleeping is my escape, even though I know that the world is the same when I wake up.

      I will say though that things will get better. It’s a struggle but eventually you’ll realize how to get out of this tunnel and feel full and alive again. Hang in there.

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