Can a crush last for 3 years?
I’m not even sure what it is that I’m feeling anymore. It’s been 3 years since our eyes met and I feel like I’ve fallen in so deep that its ridiculous.
And the worst part is that I’ve never spoken to her. Like a real conversation. We had those one line question and answer thing but I just can’t/don’t know how to build on it. She doesn’t speak to me – its always me who’s asking the questions.
I tell myself that she isn’t interested but another part of me tells me to keep at it.
We share the same class but every time I psyche myself to say something to her I freeze and my mind goes blank. We have fixed seats and she’s just a seat away but that just makes it seem worse instead of better. This could also be the last time I’ll ever share a class with her or even see her in school as we head into our final year.
I have no problems speaking with other girls but with her it’s impossible. It’s driving me nuts having to see her every week for that class and not being able to say anything.
I think we’re quite different from each other and almost completely different social circles. That’s another sticking point that keeps coming up at the back of my mind. I don’t know what to do.
All my life I’ve never felt so strongly about someone, but all this very new to me. I’ve never asked a girl out before and I don’t really know how to either. I don’t even know if I should!
I hate taking stabs at the darkness but it’s eating me up inside.