• I Had a Dream a Few Nights Ago

    by  • March 6, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, Thinking of you, Those Gone Before Us • 2 Comments

    Dear S.,

    I had a dream a few nights ago. It was completely simple. You and I were sitting at a table, talking about mundane little high school things. The only thing that struck me as odd was that in the dream, I knew you were dead. You knew you were dead. The fact wasn’t hidden, but it wasn’t shocking either. I didn’t ask you any of the important questions, you know, the kinds they show when such a situation happens in a movie? I didn’t ask what dying felt like, I didn’t ask if you had met God yet, I didn’t ask why you were driving so fast on such a rainy night. All I asked was why you hadn’t tried out for academic team this year, and complimented how well you had done on a test. It was so strange.

    When I woke up, I honestly thought it was a sign that I was going to die, and come visit you soon. I have been sick a few times since you left, had chest pains, started losing hair at an alarming rate. I don’t know if I have something major wrong, or if these things are just minor.

    Yesterday was pretty bad. I have felt guilty simply for living since you had to go. I had my eighteenth birthday. I sure wish you could have had yours. You deserved a nice party, with your friends and family…

    I will try to live my life in a way you would have been proud of. I am no you. You were full of life and potential. But I will try very hard, so that the time I have been blessed with and that you never got to have will not be a waste.

    That friend from school that misses you and hopes to see you again in Heaven.

    2 Responses to I Had a Dream a Few Nights Ago

    1. Anon
      March 7, 2012 at 5:44 pm

      Its always tragic when a young person dies unexpectedly, especially when it is a friend. I am most certain that your friend would appreciate your admiration for her. It ‘s obviously affecting you a great deal. God has a purpose for everyone and everything. He said it was her time to go. Don’t think that its not fair that you lived. God has a purpose for you to be here today. I bet you there are people who rely on you and who need you to touch their lives. He’s not finished with you yet. Keep your head up high and don’t be afraid to talk to people. Friends and family can be a big help with problems like this.

    2. Sara
      March 27, 2012 at 11:19 pm

      I am so sorry for your loss. Losing a friend is never easy. I thought I would comment because I had the exact same dream about a friend I have who passed away. It was us and a bunch of friends and we all knew he was dead, but we were just talking to him like it was any other day. I just thought I would let you know that you’re not alone. I wish I could take the pain away, but all you can do is let them live on in your memories.

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