I talked to you on 2.9.12 – and then she found out again, so I was mad, I was angry and I told her it was all your fault – and I told you to F off. I want you to know that I am sorry I did that!
I suppose that is the reason for your silence…it may be that you are worried about losing what you have worked so hard for..I know you are in the process of some amazing life changing circumstances…or it may be that you have found someone else..Hell, it maybe that I was just one of many playthings ….Regardless I want you to know that I still long for you ….I never thought I would find mysef in this place again and I tried not to with you but I couldn’t stop myself. You were everything I have been looking for!
I have gone to extremes to contact you….I am always thinking of strategies to reach you…pathetic, I know….crazy, I know….but I just feel like I need to know that there is no hope for us out there….I end every day in silent agony and awake with anxious hope only to be disappointed when I don’t hear from you.I should not even expect to hear from, but I want to! I want you to tell me to get the hell away from your life or tell me that you miss me….I need to know where your thoughts go when you think of me….I know all of it is wrong and I am acting udderly ridiculous…but you are like a drug to me! Please, just respond to anything, in any way, so I know where my heart should lead me!