• All That We Are

    by  • March 6, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 2 Comments

    I met and fell in love with you 6 years ago. The following two years were a hell I could not fathom had I not experienced such lovesick loss myself. I have spent innumerable hours of my life literally pining away for you. Memories of that time still bring pain, but also an appreciation and strength I would not know otherwise.

    I have lived. I have loved. I am thankful.

    I am different.

    I was able to crawl from that dark place, but I still remember the restlessness. Fear. The overbearing weight of shame, guilt, and love I could not express. And I also remember how I got there. I would be a fool to go back again.

    My life is good right now. Perhaps I do not have everything I ever hoped and dreamed for, but those memories…I do not take for granted my health and well-being as I once did. When I make those little visits to you in my mind, they are there, serving as reminder and warning.

    I still love who you and I were together. But the repercussions may take me down. And I may not make it out again.

    You have thought me weak in the past. At moments, you were right. But, after 6 years, you do not know the strength it has taken to stay away. You always misunderstood.

    Your life is good right now. If that changes, I will not be involved. That is what I can do for you. For the both of us.

    2 Responses to All That We Are

    1. DC
      March 7, 2012 at 9:05 am

      Six years, huh? Could that be you? Do the initials KW, AB and AH mean anything to you?

    2. Anonymous Girl J
      March 7, 2012 at 8:48 pm

      No, I am sorry.

      Best wishes, friend. I hope you, too, find what you are looking for.

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