• Always is such a long time.

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    I wonder if I’ll always love you, every day for the rest of my life, thats such a long time. I hope that I dont. But it’s been this way for so long, I cant imagine this changing. I wonder if I’m going to wake up one day and you’re not the first thing I think about. I think about this quite often. I wonder how I’m going to feel if it happens like that. Maybe if and when my love for you finally does die, it’ll be just as abrupt as it was when this all started. I imagine myself being in the middle of my every day, doing whatever it is that I’ll be doing, and suddenly having to stop, stop everything, to take a moment to soak in the new found emotions of no longer loving you. I imagine it will be a consuming moment that will bring me to tears. I hope it will feel freeing and empowering. I hope I’ll feel as if I’m no longer under your spell. Or maybe it will be more subtle than that. Maybe I’ll just wake up one day, sit up, and say out loud “I don’t love him anymore.” And go on with my day. I don’t know if it’s going to be like this. I’m not even sure I’ll ever stop loving you. Right now, I feel as though I cant live with you and I cant live without you. What am I supposed to do? It’s nice to think that maybe one day I wont love you anymore, But as of right now, I still go to bed every night telling myself that I’ll love you always.

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